tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124669232024-03-07T01:21:12.974-05:00changobeerA Catholic priest does his thinking outloud on this weblog.
Fair warning.Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comBlogger194125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-89218565492559364512009-08-18T23:46:00.013-04:002009-08-19T00:12:58.116-04:00the horror, the horror...<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">With a more convoluted storyline than the most sordid Mexican <em>telenovela</em>, the cataclysmic unraveling of the Legion of Christ can only be described as a descent into lunacy.<br /><br />The kind of madness that led Van Gogh to sever his ear while stalking Gauguin…</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">The detatchment from reality that allowed Munch to paint his hallucinatory ‘<em>Scream</em>’…<br /><br />The denial and insanity that brought Colonel Kurtz to summarize his existence as “<em>The horror, the horror</em>”…<br /><br /></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcQa1JReSGMjuP3kH0y7N7MOG_Z_nwpk99JC_VCZmHBm-v8ZmEn6pQ0MRa6ixH7wSwxQa1IzgkhyeBI_nZv1JuPYZtx7AurJ-UNY5jbM8Bo2oP6qjkiXo_P7DWphvoOO8YEWQv/s1600-h/scream2.jpg"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 247px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5371518202862752098" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcQa1JReSGMjuP3kH0y7N7MOG_Z_nwpk99JC_VCZmHBm-v8ZmEn6pQ0MRa6ixH7wSwxQa1IzgkhyeBI_nZv1JuPYZtx7AurJ-UNY5jbM8Bo2oP6qjkiXo_P7DWphvoOO8YEWQv/s320/scream2.jpg" /></span></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">While investigators and journalists reveal new dimensions to Fr. Maciel’s long career as fraud and sexual predator daily, Vatican visitators try to discern fact from fiction in the Legion and the Legion’s leadership becomes ever more strident in its insistence that all is well and nothing should change.<br /><br />The Secretary General is on a whirlwind tour of LC centers spinning the yarn that there is a basis to the Legion that was not invented by the disgraced Founder and was never contaminated by his web of secrecy and falsehood. The word ‘mystique’ – not charism or constitution – has become the new shibboleth in the hasty reinvention of the Legion. <em>La mística</em> is what makes the Legion what it is… that vague, undefinable air that sets us apart… that prototypical seal somehow impressed on the collective consciousness of the Legionaries that preserves our identity and defines our cause…<br /><br />Because of its ‘mystique’, the Legion can and should remain untouched by the scandal of its Founder’s life, the glaring questions about its internal structure and operations as a religious congregation and the lethal virus of doubt and distrust spreading silently through the ranks of its members.<br /><br />This latest discourse is as puzzling as it is disingenuous. A desperate effort in the eleventh hour to preserve the status quo, business as usual, “<em>aquí no pasa nada</em>”.<br /><br />At the same time, a book recently distributed internally, ‘<em>Cristo al Centro</em>’, offers an anthology of Fr. Maciel’s writings and sayings – unindexed and sometimes slightly retouched – mixed with quotations from other, less dubious sources as a thinly disguised attempt to revindicate the Founder’s contribution to LC spirituality. Now we can quote the Founder without mentioning his name, read some of the things he said and wrote without that direct and oh-so-uncomfortable reference to his person. They’re already talking about revisiting the writings of Fr. Maciel some years down the road when all this ‘persecution’ has blown over…<br /><br />The Superior General has just sent an eighteen page letter meant, apparently, to motivate and strengthen the LCs in these difficult times. The meandering missive never even names the problems that are rocking the congregation to its core and basically offers three bits of advice to its confused, anguished and frustrated priests: pray, don’t read the newspapers and trust the superiors.<br /><br />Trust the superiors? Like we all trusted Fr. Maciel, our Superior General, for nearly 70 years?<br /><br />If their end game is to retain power and conserve the organization founded to camouflage the double life of its disgraced Founder… perhaps our trust would be better invested elsewhere. Just a thought.<br /><br /></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh02uV37RN9N0sbuyNzlzG_FhNZI8L0-jcurjTQvX11Wh5SG-HwM8sD_Z-ES_F_jOHDBy2cCP-BNS-T98mfQTRGtUrnnfXAF_KliJqttRziLwxrFb5qKpxwtOnfzOWpCf4oa2bI/s1600-h/kurtz1.jpg"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 248px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5371518569579647810" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh02uV37RN9N0sbuyNzlzG_FhNZI8L0-jcurjTQvX11Wh5SG-HwM8sD_Z-ES_F_jOHDBy2cCP-BNS-T98mfQTRGtUrnnfXAF_KliJqttRziLwxrFb5qKpxwtOnfzOWpCf4oa2bI/s320/kurtz1.jpg" /></span></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Some of the commentaries swirling around these days express the fear that the Vatican may not take the visitation to its ultimate consequences. That the Legion with its flagship seminaries, huge ordination groups and impressive works of apostolate must be preserved at all costs for the good of the Church. And that perhaps there is not the resolve to overturn stones that would reveal knowledge, complicity or benefits received by high ranking Church personalities as part of Fr. Maciel’s web of influence peddling and manipulation…<br /><br />We can only hope and pray that the truth – full and unadulterated – will win the day in the end. The Legion is a shipwreck with many victims. Full disclosure, absolute transparency, a change in leadership, a General Chapter with strict Vatican oversight, a reformed constitution, the definitive eradication of all vestiges of Fr. Maciel’s personal imprint, and a heartfelt effort to help all those who have been hurt and betrayed are the lifeboat that will keep this surreal episode in the Church’s history from turning into an irredeemable tragedy.<br /><br /><br /><br />Until then, the madness will continue and the Legion will persist in its denial and arrogance, turning into the exact opposite of what it claims to be.<br /><br />Peace.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-83711130729111310212009-07-15T23:37:00.014-04:002009-07-18T16:18:00.470-04:00who stole my primerissima?<span style="color:#ffffff;">.<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Today should be a <em>primerissima</em>.<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">You know, <em>Misa con motetes… banderas… fusion entre comunidades… merienda cena.</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><em></em><br />But it’s quiet today at our centers. Nothing out of the ordinary. Business as usual: saving the world one <em>lider</em> at a time.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">If the Pope were blessing a stone, we’d be hearing about it. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">If the Mayor of Podunk were visiting an apostolic school, there’d be ‘<em>chi-qui-ti bun-ba-di bin-bun-ba</em>’ till the cows come home.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">If Cardinal Doofratzit were having dinner with the community, the estudiantina would play <em>Viva Espana!</em> and <em>La Malaguena</em> into the wee hours of the morn. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Today is one of the most significant dates in the history of the Legion and… (<em>crickets</em>).<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">.......</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">If anything, the orchestrated ignorance of the LCs, 3GF and RC members regarding the apostolic visitation of the congregation provides an eerie backlighting for the event itself. The members of the movement, clergy and laity, have been scarcely informed and left unprepared. A strategy of ingenuous smiles and simulated serenity is firmly in place. As if the Vatican appointed visitators will be so overwhelmed by the choreography that they’ll overlook the dark recesses of the plot and the hidden horrors of the screenplay.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">The LC would almost certainly prefer to be left alone to work out its own solutions. The visitation is an embarassment and an undesired intromission into its private laboratory where truth and lies can be arbitrarily fabricated or erased through the alchemy of spin and secrecy.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />But the LC is wretchedly incapable of curing itself.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Case in point: how can the LC continue at this present moment to ordain deacons and priests? How can it promote to religious profession the young novices that obliviously inch toward their vows? How can the Legion now so aggressively recruit new candidates to fill its vaunted houses of formation?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhA3Wsh1Dp0AL-g6IV9dSaVWAPiGHExLYVT98JC61gGJXBsyk-ucoNOqjBlN1PlIrQ0lDnX1_OCIK1nLRbXFlLzoD08KI5TVb1I9wVCBWklxhhIHIA3EFNI2Ia29vLuhzElsbLQ/s1600-h/3gf1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 400px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359831382580525938" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhA3Wsh1Dp0AL-g6IV9dSaVWAPiGHExLYVT98JC61gGJXBsyk-ucoNOqjBlN1PlIrQ0lDnX1_OCIK1nLRbXFlLzoD08KI5TVb1I9wVCBWklxhhIHIA3EFNI2Ia29vLuhzElsbLQ/s400/3gf1.jpg" /></a>This is a point that Fr. Berg made in his recent interview and that many of us have marvelled at in private conversations.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Is not full knowledge a requisite for full and free consent? Could anyone validly commit their lives to serve as priest and religious in an institution about which they really know quite little because the truth has been systematically obfuscated and discarded?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Shouldn’t the LC at least wait until the visitation publishes its results – and we should all pray for an independent publication, free from LC filters and delays, if we hope to ever know the real findings and results – before herding more idealistic young men into its ranks?<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">The retort that present generations are less affected by the scandalous life and legacy of Fr. Maciel and so should progress unfettered by useless hindrances like ‘truth’ and ‘full disclosure’ is disingenuous at best. Every new candidate to the LC should know up front that he is entering the only existing religious order in the Catholic Church whose Founder was a sexual predator and a pathological liar who lived a double life during the sixty whatever years of the foundation. The parents of every new recruit should be carefully informed that their son or daughter is about to put their life and conscience in the hands of an institution that has had to disown its Founder because of accusations of sexual abuse (“more than 20, less than 100”), toss out all the writings and teachings that sustain his warped spirituality and now awaits with uncertainty a judgment on its future existence. They should also know that the men presently running the organization that will exercise full and unmitigated authority over their son or daughter were hand-picked by Fr. Maciel and swore personal allegiance to him at the last General Chapter.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Hey, folks, wake up!!! I mean this ain’t the Jesuits, the Dominicans or the Salesians you’re joining… we’re the LC!!! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">If there were real transparency and full disclosure, who in their right mind would risk getting involved with the Legion of Christ right now?<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3PnciTvbG9O95DLY7-B9r9cX8CAtEMYk4rSQP1YiWYbU2EEHntCWyK7fKeCi9sygN8NWnd5Xu85qODpe06K73Jpm2CHnReCQiG5Mv5X543pe8woIoW9QGE6Fqf5Fpbn3ya0ms/s1600-h/np1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 290px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5359831059383175698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3PnciTvbG9O95DLY7-B9r9cX8CAtEMYk4rSQP1YiWYbU2EEHntCWyK7fKeCi9sygN8NWnd5Xu85qODpe06K73Jpm2CHnReCQiG5Mv5X543pe8woIoW9QGE6Fqf5Fpbn3ya0ms/s400/np1.jpg" /></a><br />I will take this a step further – and believe me, it has been a long, dark and painful journey to this point – and say: who among us, Legionaries of 20, 30, 40 years or more – being of sound mind and discerning conscience – would have endured even one minute of the teaching, preaching, discipline, spirituality, methodology, spiritual direction, ‘questions’, conferences or writings of Fr. Maciel had we known that at the very time he was hypnotizing us with his lies he was sexually abusing seminarians, fathering children, running around on the congregation’s dime, duping popes, cardinals, bishops and benefactors…</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />It was our ignorance that held the Legion together. The LC is founded, not on the supposed sanctity and inspiration and charism of its Founder, but on the gullible and impressionable idealism of his hapless followers.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">We should be the first to decry the smoke and mirrors. We should be the most outraged by the falsehood and programmed ignorance that keep the LCs and 3GF subject to an illusory vocation. We should be the voices that the visitation hears and that make the hard changes possible.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />And we definitely should have had a <em>primerissima</em> today…</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Chi-qui-ti bun-ba-di bin-bun-ba.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:#ffffff;">.</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-9253409432246525822009-07-09T23:37:00.007-04:002009-07-09T23:54:33.627-04:00Leave the bathwater. Take the cannoli.<span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpVo9Zeau4zidWr5CRRxbA1FANSaem1G-fyZAc57gk-_-XPI9KDF7Hlfv70YmPmkwI0qUjONyDQa6rHwAzDX7Gvn97boykrvxiZWcHxTHKVaGELRtx6_A7SJG6ilfGzQxhS3Js/s1600-h/cannoli.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 134px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5356674387845514242" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpVo9Zeau4zidWr5CRRxbA1FANSaem1G-fyZAc57gk-_-XPI9KDF7Hlfv70YmPmkwI0qUjONyDQa6rHwAzDX7Gvn97boykrvxiZWcHxTHKVaGELRtx6_A7SJG6ilfGzQxhS3Js/s200/cannoli.jpg" /></a>An old friend popped in unexpectedly today. I dropped what I was doing and we went to lunch at a deli in the section of town they used to call ‘Little Italy’. Everyone says the city is not what it used to be, but you can still get good <em>cannoli</em> and <em>sfogliatelle</em> on Franklin Ave. if you know where to look.<br /><br />We have mutual ties to the LC and this guy recently visited one of our large houses of formation in Europe. He asked the superior – also an old friend – how he was holding up, given all the pressure and uncertainty.<br /><br />I held up my hand and said, “Wait, let me guess. He replied: <em>Mucha paz y tranquilidad, gracias a Dios. Aquí y en toda la Legión se respira un gran aire de familia</em>.“<br /><br />My buddy smiled and shrugged. “Almost verbatim. How did you know?”<br /><br />“Just a hunch.” I said as the waitress came with our drinks and sandwiches.<br /><br />.......<br /><br />He asked me if I thought it possible to save the writings of Fr. Maciel. Many of them, he said, contain instruction and reflections that are, in and of themselves, good and useful. Many are simply his expression of elements of spirituality and religious life common to the universal Church. Why not keep what is good in his writings even if we must disown and distance ourselves from his person?</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9RjVC-IsAcH5fP-IKf-roiq_Xqr9Chef-HxikU366CGdIZpgUWREqKHtsBXIjYYvS9GFxRgTVXyqi78m2H1AKjrso0yCZmnEnDqr6PzsKxw2Ym8bDJ_LUMU3zFHnTb-2qgPpp/s1600-h/babybathwater.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 134px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5356673774622116066" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9RjVC-IsAcH5fP-IKf-roiq_Xqr9Chef-HxikU366CGdIZpgUWREqKHtsBXIjYYvS9GFxRgTVXyqi78m2H1AKjrso0yCZmnEnDqr6PzsKxw2Ym8bDJ_LUMU3zFHnTb-2qgPpp/s200/babybathwater.jpg" /></a><br />Why throw out the baby with the bathwater?<br /><br />I answered with two analogies.<br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Adolph Hitler was a painter. Paintings of his have survived and <a href="http://www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/europe/04/23/hitler.auction/index.html">even been auctioned off to collectors and historians in recent times</a>. He painted landscapes. He painted the Blessed Virgin with the Christ Child. He fancied himself quite the accomplished artist.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAj34dj1ytoFds4ipz2POzgpPhWXH63EZef3Se77ePhAm3yrDq1yluaVd0nITCagIwdH_PFoojm_02_2FFBNDLYGI3KBDmM-GzrFsCHbmowz1l2axOkta29MmNZ4mdSnifFrFg/s1600-h/HitlerMaryWithJesus1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 222px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5356673117363168898" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAj34dj1ytoFds4ipz2POzgpPhWXH63EZef3Se77ePhAm3yrDq1yluaVd0nITCagIwdH_PFoojm_02_2FFBNDLYGI3KBDmM-GzrFsCHbmowz1l2axOkta29MmNZ4mdSnifFrFg/s320/HitlerMaryWithJesus1.jpg" /></a>Hitler is not remembered for his art. He is forever engraved upon the collective memory of humankind as arguably the least human, most deranged and criminal mass murderer of modern times. That is who he was.<br /><br />To say, ‘let’s forget who he was and hang his paintings in the rectory’ would be disingenuous, offensive and repugnant to even the most lenient of critics.<br /><br />One cannot separate the art from the artist. <strong>BECAUSE OF WHO HE WAS</strong>, Hitler’s Madonna and Child becomes a particularly blasphemous mockery of the Virgin, Christ and all the sacred artwork that has tried to represent the Holy Mother and her Son throughout time.<br /><br />Analogy number two: in the Gospel narration of the temptations of Jesus, Satan quotes Sacred Scripture in the hopes of inducing the Savior to sin.<br /><br />By itself, Scripture is a holy and valuable guide. On the lips of the Adversary it becomes a singularly vile and devious hex, a sacrilegious manipulation that reeks of evil and desperation.<br /><br />Fr. Maciel was neither Satan nor Hitler and analogies take us only so far.<br /><br />But while Fr. Maciel masqueraded as the saintly founder, the admirable priest, apostle and ‘suffering servant of Yahweh’ that all the LCs sought to emulate in their own vocation, his writings were veritable treasures that we meditated and quoted, memorized and preached.<br /><br />Once we found out <strong><em>who he truly was</em></strong>, those same writings have turned into the cruelest of jokes, a most unholy parody of true spirituality and religious tradition, a sacrilegious satire that should make us all ashamed of having once proudly called ourselves ‘co-founders’.<br /><br />The bathwater dissolved whatever baby there was long, long ago.<br />So throw it out with no regrets.<br /><br />Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-78852003744035592122009-06-24T22:55:00.007-04:002009-06-24T23:17:15.849-04:00the Baptist, the Curè<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOVdxMY9VSPR8iyKLNU_-DSq9HN3vfcHmXbxI1bm4jZE64eAsTLtcm7PNdrlSQeF0eJHBucUDKKjR5ZWwhaATgqVPtGDD3og4T0wHIxhyphenhyphenk24YXErV7bUTxX7N0Q5tMk9RErtsF/s1600-h/baptist1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 306px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5351095093331511362" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOVdxMY9VSPR8iyKLNU_-DSq9HN3vfcHmXbxI1bm4jZE64eAsTLtcm7PNdrlSQeF0eJHBucUDKKjR5ZWwhaATgqVPtGDD3og4T0wHIxhyphenhyphenk24YXErV7bUTxX7N0Q5tMk9RErtsF/s400/baptist1.jpg" /></a>The Nativity of John the Baptist caught one of our more perspicacious early Mass-goers by surprise this morning. She is training to become an extraordinary minister of communion and has, as a side effect, grown entranced by our liturgical calendar.<br /><br />As I locked the aged maple doors of the church, she turned back and asked me why we celebrate the birth of John the Baptist when, to the best of her observation, other saints are celebrated on their death... or, as I prefer, exit to reality.<br /><br />John’s importance as a sign of messianic fulfillment and his role as the Precursor, last prophet of the Old Covenant, has traditionally been recognized as equal or greater than his importance as saint and martyr. His birth and his death prefigure the Christ who enters the stage of humanity barely a step behind him.<br /><br />John the Baptist is not your garden variety holy man. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><p><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></p><p><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />Pope Benedict chose the birth date of another John, also unique in his sainthood, to initiate what he is calling ‘a year for priests’.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjUTgpGQzSCAXqBFHEQWYkmsgUttmkesCEUmEi2Apg5qdo25yoJ3cR3flhCLS7mJD_DE_y_83ECq6qOPCZpoVvidHCwXVj50a1EQ8SxrWOgqg2ReDqZfQK-x1_Xx_m0jyTpNIm/s1600-h/cure1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 253px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5351095497843215170" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjUTgpGQzSCAXqBFHEQWYkmsgUttmkesCEUmEi2Apg5qdo25yoJ3cR3flhCLS7mJD_DE_y_83ECq6qOPCZpoVvidHCwXVj50a1EQ8SxrWOgqg2ReDqZfQK-x1_Xx_m0jyTpNIm/s400/cure1.jpg" /></a><a href="http://www.vatican.va/holy_father/benedict_xvi/letters/2009/documents/hf_ben-xvi_let_20090616_anno-sacerdotale_en.html">The letter he wrote</a>, outlining his purpose for this timely and urgent celebration of the priesthood, is a fitting point of departure for what will be a year’s worth of meditation on our identity and mission as priests.<br /><br />I read the letter slowly and could not help but recall, as one who flips through the pages of a scrap book, the different episodes of my own journey that have been as dramatic and, at times, as commonplace as anyone blessed with this unusual vocation.<br /><br />The past eight months have been particularly trying – in ways unpredicted – because of the unraveling of the Legion of Christ and the increased demands of my ministry: the administration of four struggling city parishes, the latest of which, is barely awaking from a long and dark hibernation...<br /><br />Never have I felt so surpassed by my circumstances, so utterly befuddled by the twists and turns of fate, so acutely aware that a priest is one who relinquishes the reins of his life to Another...<br /><br />Both Johns have something to teach me this year.<br /><br />Peace. </span></p>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-13525623768435143192009-06-16T01:25:00.005-04:002009-06-19T10:48:57.334-04:00more than words<div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There was a time when it was severely frowned upon to refer to writers other than the Founder in our preaching, spiritual exercises and private reading. We were instructed to quote him often, to dedicate certain meditations to his person, virtue and vocation. We were to read his letters during adoration and as part of the liturgy of the hours. We were to engage in studies of our own spirituality much like Jesuits have studied Ignatius and Salesians have studied Don Bosco.<br /><br />Now? Not so much.<br /><br />For those of us who have lived through it, it is nothing less than mind-boggling.<br /><br />Recalling the years and years of our lives as LCs during which EVERYTHING was centered on the person of Fr. Maciel now feels like trying to remember the hallucinations of a distant psychotic episode.<br /><br />Every word, every gesture, every commentary, every scrap of paper scribbled on by ‘the Boss’ was a treasure, an unforgettable connection between the inspired, saintly Founder and his intrepid, although still imperfect, <em>co-founders</em>.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizZoJu7d0KWqpzOG8lA1xa66azD0FrphL3SAbtniFBTn8IdtF16mu9n2x4JZR9Gz4FSlJ9Qb55w62CsJtm7KCO7HGWjLIuERijwtajztOXPf1x-tvlvs1SlF4bkUzdwfAHxqVY/s1600-h/aposwithcross.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5349045990700031474" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 196px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizZoJu7d0KWqpzOG8lA1xa66azD0FrphL3SAbtniFBTn8IdtF16mu9n2x4JZR9Gz4FSlJ9Qb55w62CsJtm7KCO7HGWjLIuERijwtajztOXPf1x-tvlvs1SlF4bkUzdwfAHxqVY/s200/aposwithcross.jpg" border="0" /></a>For a long time the most piercing motivation the superiors could give us to live with greater fidelity the infinite rules and regulations of the order was: “<em>Think of how Nuestro Padre suffers with even the slightest infidelity of his co-founders!</em>”<br /><br />He was our ideal... the true “<em>legionario tipo</em>” that we all so ardently aspired to imitate.<br /><br />I cringe to think of it now.<br /><br />Those same green books that I so dutifully worked my way through, volume after volume, taking time to memorize favorite passages and copy special phrases into my own spiritual journal... now make me physically nauseous when I try to read their pages.<br /><br />A letter from the early 80’s encouraging a LC priest to be ‘authentic’, to open himself entirely to the Legion through his superiors, to never wear ‘masks’ and always be transparent...<br /><br /><em>This from the master mask maker himself!<br /></em><br />Line after line on the subject of chastity, on maintaining priestly dignity and decency when dealing with women, on offering the sacrifice of ourselves with a pure heart to Christ...<br /><br /><em>When did he think this stuff up? While he was lying in bed, enjoying a post-coital cigarette next to some young concubine, dreaming of the army of holy priests he would someday offer the Church?</em><br /><br />Or how about those fabulous letters warning us of the dangers of ‘particular friendships’, those devilish ‘<em>maría–remedios</em>' waiting to seduce us at every turn, importuning us to have confidence only in our superiors (i.e. <em>report everything you see, no matter how innocuous, to Big Brother</em>)...<br /><br /><em>Yet behind it all he camouflaged his own turbid proclivities and allowed his unrestrained deviance to ruin so many young lives!</em><br /><br />How sick does it get, man?<br /><br />All those heavy one-liners of Nuestro Padre that were constantly repeated as a litany of motivation to eager and gullible ‘co-founders’ now sound hopelessly vapid and cynical:<br /><br /><strong><em>“fiel hasta morir en la raya”</em></strong> Yeah, right. Just like NP.<br /><br /><strong><em>“de una sola pieza, al pié del cañón”</em></strong> Spare me the irony.<br /><br /><strong><em>“amor et dolor vita mea”</em></strong> You put lipstick on a pig, it’s still a pig.<br /><br /><strong><em>“el Legionario se es o se despide”</em></strong> Finally, some candid advice...<br /><br /><strong><em>“nunca he dicho ‘no’ a mi Señor Jesucristo”</em></strong> If that’s the case, who has?<br /><br /><strong><em>“soy por la Legión que Dios me quiere”</em></strong> Syntax is no longer the main problem with this one...</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></div></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><div><strong><em>“mi vida por Cristo”</em></strong> Whatever.<br /><br /><br />All of this is not just the venting of a guy who, like many others, was deceived and betrayed about the core truth of his vocation.<br /><br />It is vitally important as a point to be considered by the visitation.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrZHKt6iFys8mL5PJJyLTHl6g0gN_9btf_zjxg3gTDYPo4Y4g4ysyl7qloNgSt8mD4Qqlbm5XAEV9N8oISezMvY3TegO5dMsZHz595ElMShhYBJI4ZRYEh2HyVtfX6qdjPOIlr/s1600-h/npscoldingapo.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5349046486885155506" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 116px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrZHKt6iFys8mL5PJJyLTHl6g0gN_9btf_zjxg3gTDYPo4Y4g4ysyl7qloNgSt8mD4Qqlbm5XAEV9N8oISezMvY3TegO5dMsZHz595ElMShhYBJI4ZRYEh2HyVtfX6qdjPOIlr/s200/npscoldingapo.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />The spirituality of the LC, such as it is, is embedded in the writings of the Founder. His thoughts and his words are conserved in endless books, pamphlets, recordings and videos. In the LC we have often prided ourselves on how completely EVERY aspect of our lives has been defined and detailed by the Founder.<br /><br />The double life of Fr. Maciel as inspired spiritual guide/fraud and sexual predator has totally negated his credibility. Nothing he has said or written to the LCs or the RC members can be believed or taken seriously. Who he was taints all he wrote. There is no separating the teachings from the life of the teacher when it comes to the all-consuming, conscience-binding religious vocation.<br /><br />The writings – all of them, from the Constitutions to the <em>Salterio</em> – are as fraudulent as the life that produced them.<br /><br />From now on, there will be an 800 pound gorilla in the room every time his letters are read during meals in spiritual exercises, every time the Constitutions are read and commented on in community, every time the wishes and words of the Founder are half-heartedly tossed around as motivations.<br /><br />In essence, the visitation has to expunge every last vestige of the Founder from the Legion’s spirituality.<br /><br />But would a ‘Legion’ devoid of Fr. Maciel’s thought and teaching still be the Legion of Christ?<br /><br />Therein lies the challenge: to remake a religious congregation into something totally removed from its Founder, while at the same time salvaging the vocations, apostolates, houses of formation and charitable works associated with it.<br /><br />Peace.<br /><br /></span></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-12737815848940009272009-06-07T18:58:00.005-04:002009-06-07T19:11:17.948-04:00a triple challenge<span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">And I thought Pentecost was a bust...<br /><br />Preaching on these theologically supersized liturgical solemnities is definitely a challenge. It feels like there’s no middle ground between trivializing the content into Paris Hilton/Jonathan Morris approved sound bytes and turning the homily into an arid ethereal classroom à la Gregoriana...<br /><br />Regardless, my experience is that if you speak passionately and with enough personal conviction about anything, you can get them to listen.<br /><br />For a little while.<br /><br />This is where I went, in under twelve minutes, today, Solemnity of the Holy Trinity:</span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqELGdrSfklyUjf8FKutUl4GTETovE32vcQApSz611BDKhwkVyOq0fLUhEyNY-7bxE5_5eY8fjVz8b3G-hA0XMnQKIL3gg4ztnqi_CLefqBRpR0Di7-uHdMjNOUerev2Ws6_jC/s1600-h/holy-trinity1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344725267062062866" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 228px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqELGdrSfklyUjf8FKutUl4GTETovE32vcQApSz611BDKhwkVyOq0fLUhEyNY-7bxE5_5eY8fjVz8b3G-hA0XMnQKIL3gg4ztnqi_CLefqBRpR0Di7-uHdMjNOUerev2Ws6_jC/s400/holy-trinity1.jpg" border="0" /></a> • all religions look for ways to speak about the Ultimate Reality<br />• all religions coincide, to some degree, in what they say about God<br />• but the truth about God can only be revealed by God Himself<br /><br />• Christianity has a unique, somewhat difficult, way of expressing its knowledge of God... such as it is<br />• Christianity believes that Jesus Christ IS God and, therefore, is God revealing Himself in a way that we can comprehend... at least a little<br />• Jesus of Nazareth found no better words in the human vocabulary to speak about God than: Father, Son and Spirit (Consoler, Advocate...)<br />• Jesus differentiates between the three persons but radically adheres to the affirmation of a single God<br />• the ‘three’ of the ‘Trinity’ is not, strictly speaking, a number; it is an expression of plenitude, of a relationship that is complete and perfect<br /><br />• far from being a theoretical dogma (read: entirely useless as far as my ‘real life’ is concerned), our faith in the Trinity is our answer to the ultimate and ever-present WHY?<br />• we affirm that relationship (love) - not matter, blind energy or the cosmic lottery – is the source, the underpinning, the reason, the cause, the finality and the meaning of all there is<br />• the universe, with us in it, is the result of the Father’s love for the Son... a love that had to overflow outside itself, expand beyond its own divinity, as it were<br />• the universe, our universe, is the necessary scenario – the ultimate possibility – for the Son to love the Father totally, as He Himself is loved... our imperfect world gives the Son the platform to embrace and become what He is not (suffering, sin, death, condemnation), exhausting all possibilities of love understood as losing oneself for the beloved...<br />• the Spirit is the vibrant, dramatic, subtle and explosive relationship between Father and Son that fills the universe, gives being where only nothingness would survive, and permeates with its beauty all that is<br /><br />• after Mass, we shall all go running off to Walmart, or to twittering and text messaging our friends, or to fire up the grill in the backyard or to plop down in front of the flatscreen to watch the Yankees or the Sox... but the tremendous truth of what we affirm today as a community in this holy place will ever and always be the rock we stand on and the hope we live by<br /><br />Peace. </span></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-91281173245361588162009-06-06T01:26:00.004-04:002009-06-09T23:08:20.000-04:00liar, liar<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">A couple of weeks ago I had a visit from a friend, a priest in another religious congregation.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><a href="http://www.somascans.org/">The Somascan Fathers (CRS)</a>, founded around the beginning of the 16th century, have a relatively small operation in the USA, but can be found serving in parishes with high levels of poverty or large numbers of recently arrived immigrants.<br /><br />This priest told me <a href="http://thesplendorofthechurch.blogspot.com/2007/12/our-gratitude-and-prayer-to-father.html">the troubling story</a> of their last superior general, which I related to immediately. By all accounts a saintly man, a kind and gentle pastor of souls with a deep spiritual life, something cracked inside. After a number of years serving as superior he unexpectedly called a press conference and stated that he would be resigning his post. He asked the Vatican to appoint <a href="http://www.zenit.org/article-21993?l=english">someone better fitted</a> to assume the grave responsibilities of his office. Although he made no further disclosures at the time, it appears that something arose in his private circumstances that was serious enough to merit his immediate retirement.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS6iPoqMaxWuKb1ZhJ9zooI96S_e2u3zXQkYcqqrjKoX4aAr-smzTDLQIDsXTKzx2Fj0wIkA6J0UYOPut8yWW_3uWhNF0Z_CS8CtQRYrtLbTFV1HTtjwlnyXoxvPgspubBZFnm/s1600-h/cassock2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344425458964502114" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 150px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 200px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS6iPoqMaxWuKb1ZhJ9zooI96S_e2u3zXQkYcqqrjKoX4aAr-smzTDLQIDsXTKzx2Fj0wIkA6J0UYOPut8yWW_3uWhNF0Z_CS8CtQRYrtLbTFV1HTtjwlnyXoxvPgspubBZFnm/s320/cassock2.jpg" border="0" /></a>Think what you will, this man was honest enough to know that the turmoil and challenges of his personal life were radically incompatible with his religious commitment and obstreperously contradictory to his role as superior general of the congregation.<br /><br />There was pain on all sides: his, in leaving; his brethren’s, in ‘losing’ a friend and spiritual guide; the faithful’s, in wondering what inner crisis would cause a beloved priest to abandon them...<br /><br />And yet, he drew a line of basic decency in the sand and rejected the leading of a double life. He made a choice. He now lives with it. But he refused to hurt, insult and betray those around him with disdain and duplicity.<br /><br />I guess you can see where I’m going with this.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvB1tGpZpzOZrxcnlzFym2CikfLLzUA0O4kMc0L_i9gULwAI8m0tW8O4snr3OmuFlrDClkgJlzCVSOcsg5lzPhIfHQXY9hDKgie1wJzmL11Hpu5gtXP-Hk9T-eQ4-4B20FSB5_/s1600-h/np3.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344427036003193730" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 150px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 200px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvB1tGpZpzOZrxcnlzFym2CikfLLzUA0O4kMc0L_i9gULwAI8m0tW8O4snr3OmuFlrDClkgJlzCVSOcsg5lzPhIfHQXY9hDKgie1wJzmL11Hpu5gtXP-Hk9T-eQ4-4B20FSB5_/s200/np3.jpg" border="0" /></a>A Legionary priest, working in a women’s center of RC in South America, recently responded to the anguished questions of the Movement’s members about the fraudulent life of Fr. Maciel by saying, in short, that “as a man he had his shortcomings, we should not be judgmental and we should look to the good that has come from the Legion in its works”.<br /><br />His ‘<em>shortcomings</em>’?<br /><br />That’s like saying that Caligula had his ‘quirks’... or that Amy Winehouse has her occasional ‘bad hair day’.<br /><br />If we are to believe that Fr. Maciel was somehow a ‘flawed saint’ or simply ‘an imperfect instrument of God’, how do we defend the fact that he perpetuated the lie of his double life and drew so many ingenuous, enthusiastic followers into a spider’s web of wanton deception that lasted till his death?<br /><br />Why didn’t he go to the Holy Father at some stage, reveal his ‘failings’ and ask for a replacement to guide the Legion? Did he never perceive the monstrosity of the warped and pestilent theater of the absurd that his life had become? Was he so far beyond the concept of good and evil that he feared no judgment, no retribution?<br /><br />He chose to lie and he slaved tirelessly to inflate an image of sanctity, of inspiration, of leadership and of relevance for the Church throughout his entire despicable career. He diligently hid his secret life from the acting LC superiors over the years so that the realistic appearance of the illusion he was spinning would be flawless.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUKWre7jZAowp24mA49v6LlXJrWg6MCdrRqNXDdo1hApao2a2LabamcQzQmVCDkqnQrhnoCr6DAzp5qcczhAzlokPlk_V7wa8ZuvCrQlpHIXPpac_erY1NffXqWLxfXBU2loYX/s1600-h/fallenangel1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344426430541815954" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUKWre7jZAowp24mA49v6LlXJrWg6MCdrRqNXDdo1hApao2a2LabamcQzQmVCDkqnQrhnoCr6DAzp5qcczhAzlokPlk_V7wa8ZuvCrQlpHIXPpac_erY1NffXqWLxfXBU2loYX/s320/fallenangel1.jpg" border="0" /></a>It is the lie that kills me.<br /><br />I know he was a sexual predator. I know he was morally corrupt. I know he duped, popes, bishops, authorities both civil and ecclesiastic.<br /><br />But the lie that he seduced me with and with which he held me compliantly captive for thirty years smolders in my gut, invades my dreams and sullies my experience as a priest.<br /><br />His was a masterful and heartless betrayal of that which was noblest in us. We are all damned fools and the sorry, hapless remnant of a vicious fairy tale. He has made cynics of us all.<br /><br />Peace.</span><br /><br /><a></a>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-50658885078331115482009-06-01T00:09:00.005-04:002009-06-06T00:22:27.374-04:00gift of tongues<div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Year after year, my preaching on Pentecost Sunday is the equivalent of a blow out loss for an otherwise respectable, over .500 ballclub. I flounder. I misspeak. I pitch around the heavy hitters like a wuss. I say as little as I dare as quickly as possible just to be done and gone before the congregation bursts into deprecating giggles.<br /><br />The chronology is a mess, for starters.<br /><br />Luke has the disciples all huddled together fifty days after the discovery of the empty tomb. John describes the advent of the Holy Spirit as the apparition of the Risen Lord on the first day of the week following His Passion. Sacred Scripture points to the Spirit living and active in creation, manifesting Himself in different capacities throughout the entire narration of salvation history.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPA-oG6qYRv6fUI8YHcg00OwZhGmK_Qkd0H0z5mL6rozZhMd9mRXdin1CFJKkv6Wtf1htHs6CqzLQmtveKQ3z6fgTjpMtBwy1FmXKQhzUEKUyda7WrxaHAu-RptD-q3HOor4oI/s1600-h/pentecost1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344063327716135298" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 229px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPA-oG6qYRv6fUI8YHcg00OwZhGmK_Qkd0H0z5mL6rozZhMd9mRXdin1CFJKkv6Wtf1htHs6CqzLQmtveKQ3z6fgTjpMtBwy1FmXKQhzUEKUyda7WrxaHAu-RptD-q3HOor4oI/s320/pentecost1.jpg" border="0" /></a>The community is enlightened, emboldened. The universal presence of the very singular Savior is established in a mysterious covenant with human freedom that will flourish throughout this final phase of history.<br /><br />It is as if the veil is lifted on all that is good, true and beautiful to show its primal source... its original author.<br /><br />The Holy Spirit appears as the one unbreakable strand that holds humanity back from the edge of the disaster we teeter on so precariously. The Spirit renews all things and assures us that God’s loving providence will, ultimately, win the day.<br /><br />See? On Pentecost Sunday I babble like that for a few minutes and swiftly get on with the celebration of Mass.<br /><br />The pending canonical visitation may be a Pentecost of sorts for the LC. A promising wind is blowing and I can only pray that it will shake the whole house to the foundations. Hopefully the cowering disciples will shake off their fear and indifference and give into the mighty impulse of truth and transparency.<br /><br />The PTB will smile bravely and offer the usual platitudes about what a blessing the Vatican intervention is and how willingly the institution will collaborate...<br /><br />But it is up to the rank and file to seize this opportunity, this open forum that the Spirit has initiated, and speak from the heart. The legitimacy of the continued existence of our religious family is on the line. The future of our congregation and its works of apostolate, the credibility of our vocation as LCs depend on what we do now.<br /><br />Do not wait to be called. Demand to be heard.<br /><br />Do not waste time with pet peeves or petty grievances. Don’t be intimidated or confused by the official talking points. Do not hesitate out of a false sense of loyalty: the betrayal that was committed was not ours.<br /><br />Go to the essence of our experience as Legionaries. Speak openly and without reservation about formation, methodology, charism, ecclesiology, freedom of conscience, mechanisms of control, priorities, relationships inside and outside the LC, transparency, communication, trust and credibility. Don’t hide the outrage and hurt of the past few years seeing the myth collapse and the bubble burst. Don’t pretend that nothing has happened. Don’t forget that we have received tremendous gifts in spite of the lies and duplicity that darken the history of our congregation.<br /><br />If it is a clichè, it is because we have made it so. But Jesus meant it when he said it: “<em>The truth will set you free</em>.”<br /><br />Recently the Superior General wrote us a long, sentimental letter about his trip to the Holy Land as part of the entourage of Pope Benedict on his historic visit. Instead of waxing poetic on the shores of the Sea of Galilee, perhaps a straight forward, no-spin letter about something that actually matters to the members of the congregation might be in order. I suggest a letter about the tremendous historical event we are about to experience: the visitation.<br /><br />What is a visitation? Why is the LC being submitted to this extraordinary canonical process now? What precise finality does the visitation seek? How can we prepare for it? How can we all participate in it? Who can we write to? Who can we speak to?<br /><br />Some of our guys actually think that the primary task of the visitation is to delve into the dalliances of Fr. Maciel.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZquQzVlguAFb-GvWBRtHCt8H0TbTLtQbf3SZoAB7SMVaVYySKr8JYxvQFu8hvY1bhY4Ro-voWqCGsOhD2MqNdqRep2jMHSxZkBGesH5AV4hi_4VgubVMlpyRBZnQxnJ-oj2U3/s1600-h/np2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344063702952826482" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 269px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZquQzVlguAFb-GvWBRtHCt8H0TbTLtQbf3SZoAB7SMVaVYySKr8JYxvQFu8hvY1bhY4Ro-voWqCGsOhD2MqNdqRep2jMHSxZkBGesH5AV4hi_4VgubVMlpyRBZnQxnJ-oj2U3/s320/np2.jpg" border="0" /></a>Perhaps new victims will turn up, maybe yet untold horrors will be unearthed. Certainly the shredders on Via Aurelia have been churning fast and furious since the ball of twine began to unravel, making new revelations more unlikely.<br /><br />But, as far as the future of the LC is concerned, does it really matter whether he fathered four children or ten children? If the abused seminarians of his egregious career are “<em>more than twenty and less than one hundred</em>”, does an exact number effect the survival of the order?<br /><br />The visitation is about us, the LC and its inner workings... everything from silly norms of urbanity to finances, from the competence of its superiors to the freedom of conscience of its members...<br /><br />If this is the moment of truth, it is also the moment of grace.<br /><br />Let the Holy Spirit move where He will...<br />Peace.</span></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-64876073619804247782009-03-15T02:46:00.003-04:002009-03-15T10:53:21.641-04:00If the salt loses its taste...<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Busy. Far too busy for my liking. It’s the bad busy, the task oriented, get this or that done, hamster wheel kind of busy. It’s the busy that comes with four inner-city parishes, too few resources and too many insoluble problems.<br /><br />‘<em>Just a little bit longer</em>’, I keep telling myself...<br /><br />Meanwhile, the PTB are gathering on Via Aurelia again for another damage control pow-wow. Normally, time is on their side and they know it. So policy in handling unpleasantries that have attracted the public eye usually favors the ‘let-it-languish, let-it-drag-on’ mode until the mass of detractors loses interest and the LC can continue with business as usual.<br /><br />This time, who knows?<br /><br />This time the sweet, sickening smell of decay is so strong, the shock that has struck the foundation so catastrophic, the cracks and leaks are so visible... they just may have to take serious action. Or it may be imposed by the Holy See.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh06Ec-9Y6NClujubeQceVmQpPw_cqvyH9Ep4gMivJPnrVVv1XBuseclehvlhNvaoAGrZmCLHYAY2Luw9UUZbSej6m3dPPAqvQ3otTI9bgIt1Pu0hArA2eXnHS4dQfX8CDgqt6o/s1600-h/salt1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5313412489071366178" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh06Ec-9Y6NClujubeQceVmQpPw_cqvyH9Ep4gMivJPnrVVv1XBuseclehvlhNvaoAGrZmCLHYAY2Luw9UUZbSej6m3dPPAqvQ3otTI9bgIt1Pu0hArA2eXnHS4dQfX8CDgqt6o/s200/salt1.jpg" border="0" /></a>Whatever the final outcome, the PTB should know something, because it will ultimately decide whether anything can be salvaged of our congregation at this point or not. It is simple enough, it is certainly evident enough... but I get the feeling you might not have noticed yet, so here goes:<br /><br />No one believes you.<br /><br />No one believes a word you say, a sentence you write or a promise you make.<br /><br />No one believes either, that the present leadership of the LC can reform or save the congregation because you are (we are!) what we will always be: <em>hijos fieles del P.Maciel...</em><br /><br />What will ultimately make the LC crumble, what has caused the insufferable state of inner tension and foreboding in her rank and file is, quite frankly, <strong><em>the lack of credibility of its leadership.</em></strong><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9NJrH9_Lt14RrrVWbR6XM7cUxQ1dYkKskCNpTc18ujy_jkV1keBNjFjGb3zeinWtpxNBiVzkIZBGb-03ZtId3KDU4BKoPbIBEHQB4zJFiJjKV6lgCm7SU4dL8y4VGfqH-nidh/s1600-h/agentsmith1.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5313412901771053522" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 250px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9NJrH9_Lt14RrrVWbR6XM7cUxQ1dYkKskCNpTc18ujy_jkV1keBNjFjGb3zeinWtpxNBiVzkIZBGb-03ZtId3KDU4BKoPbIBEHQB4zJFiJjKV6lgCm7SU4dL8y4VGfqH-nidh/s320/agentsmith1.bmp" border="0" /></a>The seeds of duplicity, deceit, distrust and intrigue were sown from the congregation’s beginnings. The Founder led a double life all the while submitting us - his willing, enthusiastic followers - to a regimen of poverty, chastity, obedience and uncritical submission of conscience. The idea that the LC is God’s work and must be ‘defended’ at all cost and by any means was his only moral compass. Popes, cardinals, bishops and Vatican officials could be fooled and manipulated as long as it benefited the LC. Its own members are kept on a need-to-know basis, always suspect, always scrutinized for those telltale signs of ‘lack of integration’...<br /><br />The leadership of the Legion has inherited from Fr. Maciel the mentality and <em>modus operandi</em> that makes them fundamentally untrustworthy. Only now, there is no private vow to hide behind and the discontent is growing.<br /><br />The tragic comedy of the past few months, with superiors running around telling and not telling, promising transparency but only deepening the murkiness that engulfs the LC, has made their lack of credibility evident to even the most gullible among us. I rank highly on that scale.<br /><br />And now, no one believes you.<br /><br />It doesn’t mean that there aren’t LCs who have other motives for toeing the line or flying beneath the radar and making their peace with a system they’ve figured out how to survive in (and some quite nicely).<br /><br />It doesn’t mean that the LC will run out of yes-men who unctuously cater to authority and offer the same safe old cliches and pre-approved commentaries as they nervously munch their <em>Maria</em> cookies at <em>merienda-cena</em>...<br /><br />It means that they do not believe you.<br />And if they don’t believe you, they certainly don’t trust you.<br /><br />This should not be overlooked or underestimated as you meet in Rome these next few days. Your lack of credibility – not Fr. Maciel’s past sins – will eventually buckle and break the Legion.<br /><br />Please, PTB, do the right thing.<br />Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-20017776645752986502009-01-30T01:11:00.000-05:002009-01-30T01:11:00.360-05:00requiem for a dream<div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><br /><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">One year ago today the Founder of the Legion of Christ, our Founder – Nuestro Padre – passed away. Instead of recalling with pride and nostalgia my thirty year participation in the foundation in privileged close company of the Founder, I find myself nearly disconsolate. Outrage, grief, a deep unutterable feeling of betrayal and deception have been growing in my soul for nearly six months as bits and pieces of the truth have painfully been made known to me.<br /><br />Up until very recently I defended Fr. Maciel in public and private, knowing that the very essence of my identity as a Legionary priest depended on it. Now there is nothing to defend. It has all collapsed, and with it, a lifetime of enthusiastic commitment and high idealism.<br /><br />I sit here humbled and heartsick with one earnest plea for the present leadership of the Legion: please, do the right thing. For the love of God and in honor of the hundreds of men, like yourselves, that have given their lives to the Congregation, bearing the burden of a fidelity that our Founder demanded of us but was unable himself to deliver: do what is right.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4x2G9t6oJ_XQdxYX4dKbm8DPNvaIPvovC7h0tkcgTQ7ZGYQla1uL3dyHC3Lh7Q3M95isOxHxfgCJdvzhpSUOE3IKWk2MoTPsb5sH1WRm3yKEj-ox83dUNGoC7IGn0NNoYwP4W/s1600-h/sad+angel.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5296936034261954898" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 131px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4x2G9t6oJ_XQdxYX4dKbm8DPNvaIPvovC7h0tkcgTQ7ZGYQla1uL3dyHC3Lh7Q3M95isOxHxfgCJdvzhpSUOE3IKWk2MoTPsb5sH1WRm3yKEj-ox83dUNGoC7IGn0NNoYwP4W/s200/sad+angel.jpg" border="0" /></a>Put the truth first. You owe it to us all. Tell us the whole story, tell us what our options are now and set about the reform of the Legion.<br /><br />The Legion must go forward, purged of the toxins released into its bloodstream by years of machiavellian duplicity, and recreate itself solely on the merits of its works.<br /><br />No more spin, no more platitudes, no more intimidation to keep the Legion’s men from thinking, questioning, seeking the truth. Step aside if need be and allow others – with clear motives and fresh eyes – to save all that is good in the Congregation and dissipate once and for all the inner culture of deceit and control. A <a href="http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/15479a.htm">canonical visitation</a> conducted in rigorous transparency might yet save the Legion of Christ.<br /><br />I am amazed and grateful to God that so much good has and continues to be done by a religious order that has venerated and nourished its spirit from a Founder now discovered to be the antithesis of the very spirituality and discipline he imparted to us while so brazenly and artfully occulting his other life from us.<br /><br />So please, do not pretend that this is not devastating to all of us. Do not act like nothing has happened and that nothing should change. Have the basic decency to come clean with your own men and trust them enough to help you take the Legion to where it must go from here. Full disclosure is the only option. You’ve tried everything else, now, finally now, give truth a chance. You may be pleasantly surprised by the strength, resiliency and commitment of us all.<br /><br />May God continue to guide us, in spite of ourselves.<br />Peace.<br /></span></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-41054950403890624972008-11-06T23:13:00.000-05:002008-11-16T17:45:15.534-05:00finding it... again<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">“<em>But when the Son of man comes, will he find faith on earth?</em>” (Lk 18:8)<br /><br />Our Lord’s ominous question recorded in Luke’s Gospel would be emphatically misunderstood were it taken solely as rhetorical.<br /><br />Faith as a life decision that redeems and informs all one’s plans and aspirations is in visibly short supply in a world that sets merely passing goals for us... money, fame, comfort and that scam of scams: ‘security’.<br /><br />But there are places where faith is cultivated as an all-consuming lifestyle, where the noise, the distraction, the sham and the shamelessly destructive glitter is sealed out hermitically to the benefit of all those strong and wise enough to go beyond the false promises and permanent dissatisfactions.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJoZps47ZuqxJt-j9PdRsze-6ztLZhtLR-HSNkzy4iIy60fM25qDRqJPeRM9cBCpbgTSMn8oUPQ_xoWYTilqix3D2QBVHOR4DTzU-iQk-JkFDZXFneFQqfrnx96kwBtZLHVBMQ/s1600-h/spencer2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5269389360500767858" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 213px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJoZps47ZuqxJt-j9PdRsze-6ztLZhtLR-HSNkzy4iIy60fM25qDRqJPeRM9cBCpbgTSMn8oUPQ_xoWYTilqix3D2QBVHOR4DTzU-iQk-JkFDZXFneFQqfrnx96kwBtZLHVBMQ/s320/spencer2.jpg" border="0" /></a>I was fortunate enough to spend a week in such a place at the end of October.<br /><br />Spencer Abbey of the <a href="http://www.ocso.org/HTM/net/ocso-en.htm">Cistercian Order of Strict Observance</a> (Trappist) is one of those singular oases where silence, prayer, work and study permit faith to flourish unsullied and the discovery of its very particular joy.<br /><br />The <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Through-Faith-Fire-Spencer-1825-1958/dp/0972942793/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1226873714&sr=1-1">history of the Spencer monks</a> is adventurous and colorful. The nearly 2400 acres of solitary retreat in the rolling hills of central Massachusetts is the stage for sainthood, personal redemption, solace and healing for everyone who lives or visits there.<br /><br />For me it meant no trains shaking the house, no sirens filling the night air, no phones, meetings, e-mails or complaints about the many tasks left unperformed by so many people left unsatisfied by my performance.<br /><br />The retreat was loosely formatted: an open invitation to chant the liturgy of the hours seven times a day with the monks, concelebrated Mass at 6am and a guided meditation once a day by one of the priests of the abbey. (Only one in three of the monks go on to receive Holy Orders. The others live as choir monks and lay brothers their entire lives in the monastery.)<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEY24FnErEOLShrKEdI_dr_LYcab6noz-Rqb5lDxrogTGMPZVCwMwE8LR6wkmVaYtJfeDC73RBt0SYifIT14wjaQpgGEIzsb9VqNVogZc579rSxJBRc1YjaY0OTxTPLDpNUU58/s1600-h/spencer1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5269389632689338018" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEY24FnErEOLShrKEdI_dr_LYcab6noz-Rqb5lDxrogTGMPZVCwMwE8LR6wkmVaYtJfeDC73RBt0SYifIT14wjaQpgGEIzsb9VqNVogZc579rSxJBRc1YjaY0OTxTPLDpNUU58/s200/spencer1.jpg" border="0" /></a>Fr. Matthew, our retreat guide – there were five other priests that week on retreat – reflected on the topic of universal salvation as found in the writings and teachings of Pope Benedict. The theological thought behind his comments, from Origen and Julian of Norwich to <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Dare-Hope-That-All-Saved/dp/0898702070/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1226873876&sr=1-1">Von Balthasar</a> and Ratzinger himself, was a refreshing variation from the irritating and often senseless blather that a temporary administrator of inner city parishes deals with 24/7.<br /><br />It was also a change from what I had previously experienced as ‘spiritual exercises’ – very busy, regimented and maddeningly micro-managed.<br /><br />It was like a cool, invigorating dip in a secluded lake in the middle of a dry, hot summer.<br /><br />Now it’s back to the grind with the challenge of keeping the inner oasis fresh and vibrant until my circumstances permit me another escape to Spencer...<br /><br />Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-61142408027636829132008-10-25T23:55:00.005-04:002008-11-09T17:24:59.224-05:00"Wait Master, it might be dangerous... you go first."<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I told my niece that I would visit her once a month. In that regard, at least, I have proven to be a very serious piece of uncle.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSAX0yt9dEJvuKEtktKwjtTjiDGcVOlwFC-CUN5fhCuC3Gp-f1ilNNOfCL-NIKxvhgrHW5uHO-RSSzwCzKIwa7YM85390CJda7xqZnRhS_PwAkwxecMM6scGtZoX4Wnzhh3jGb/s1600-h/franken1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5265714635027074434" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 267px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSAX0yt9dEJvuKEtktKwjtTjiDGcVOlwFC-CUN5fhCuC3Gp-f1ilNNOfCL-NIKxvhgrHW5uHO-RSSzwCzKIwa7YM85390CJda7xqZnRhS_PwAkwxecMM6scGtZoX4Wnzhh3jGb/s400/franken1.jpg" border="0" /></a>She does not look like a college student to me, still so diminutive and child-like in many ways. She’s into fashion and I don’t get it, as I readily admit, but apparently I’m in the minority. Manhattan is a loud, mind-numbing chaos to me and imagining her day after day traipsing obliviously from dorm to classes (I mean, I’m assuming there are actually ‘classes’ of some sort involved in this fashion nonsense, right? ...RIGHT?!?!) and wherever else she may wander kind of freaks me out. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />Words like ‘frailty’, ‘vulnerability’, ‘susceptibility’ - oh yes, and ‘WHAT THE HELL WERE WE THINKING LETTING THIS DITZY LITTLE GIRL MOVE TO NEW YORK BY HERSELF????’ - gently insinuate themselves into my unspoken monologues whenever she pops into my mind.<br /><br />She pops often into my mind because my knee-jerk reaction to the trauma of actually watching (helping... I actually helped her move... gasp) was to get her a cell phone. In retrospect, not a mistake, but certainly not the ticket to tranquility that I convinced myself it would be.<br /><br />I don’t mind the text messages at 2am... but then I find myself wondering, “Why in God’s name is this child even awake at 2am? ...in Manhattan ...in a college dorm somewhere alone... I mean she MUST have classes tomorrow, right? ...does this fashion bs require classes? ...what could they possibly teach in these classes? ...’<em>Buttons 101</em>’? ‘<em>From Camel Skin to Cashmere: The Evolution of the Sweater Shrug</em>’? ‘<em>The Logic of Layering</em>’?”<br /><br />For my October visit she says she wants to celebrate Halloween in some way. Before she could even suggest anything to do with Halloween in the Village or Chelsea or anywhere else I told her I’d plan the evening.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifKadwiUzhQVFUWxYV230Ph6kgZ1LDTwsA3e3j4n85ye_cCixq3PNCj80PF1O4NIf3VG6RqdNOe7IPHX23fSueHI4a80m9hJZ8H3xObrOQkbE6flnjji9fWMKpiUATjJAmVhMR/s1600-h/franken2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5265714990136524434" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 134px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifKadwiUzhQVFUWxYV230Ph6kgZ1LDTwsA3e3j4n85ye_cCixq3PNCj80PF1O4NIf3VG6RqdNOe7IPHX23fSueHI4a80m9hJZ8H3xObrOQkbE6flnjji9fWMKpiUATjJAmVhMR/s200/franken2.jpg" border="0" /></a>We ended up having a burger together at the Hard Rock Cafe, mine real, hers veggie (please don’t ask) and seeing <a href="http://www.youngfrankensteinthemusical.com/"><em>Young Frankenstein</em> </a>at the Hilton. I loved it as a movie when I was in high school, thankfully she loved it now, 34 years later, in its Broadway musical version. I laughed anticipating the famous old gags of the movie: “<em>That’s Fronkensteen/That’s Eye-gor</em>”, “<em>Walk this way!</em>”. “<em>What hump</em>?”, “<em>Werewolf/there wolf</em>”, “<em>Abby Normal</em>”, Harold the Hermit, the tap dance, etc.<br /><br />Anyway, we had a good time doing something we both enjoyed. If <strong><em>Young Frankenstein</em></strong> is the scariest thing she encounters during her stay in the city, it will have gone very well for both of us indeed.<br /><br />Peace. </span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-33884371723311857812008-10-09T01:53:00.001-04:002008-10-09T16:04:46.841-04:00kindling passion<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I consider reading to be one of the finer pleasures of life.<br /><br />I put it right up there with smoky, small batch bourbon, earthy Cuban cigars and sunny fall afternoons on shimmering New England lakes.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhc9zx5Oa6MPdUC-V09F9EQWQQvISWWrIImDkNuCmBcT5lcy0T7tLVfOlM9PZ5GhNNpUhb3vQ0b0b6K7SdOzK-NKhI5lg4gvYkqSd9p_zgqk78Jd8to_AgnOM8JKD7QvCZKKyg0/s1600-h/reader1.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhc9zx5Oa6MPdUC-V09F9EQWQQvISWWrIImDkNuCmBcT5lcy0T7tLVfOlM9PZ5GhNNpUhb3vQ0b0b6K7SdOzK-NKhI5lg4gvYkqSd9p_zgqk78Jd8to_AgnOM8JKD7QvCZKKyg0/s400/reader1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5255216047137605074" /></a>As with all earthly pleasures, the risk of abuse and addiction is concomitant, but so are the endless excuses I find to justify it as the right thing to do at practically any given moment.<br /><br />My tastes are eclectic and I often have two or three books on the menu at once. I rarely walk out of a movie I’ve paid for, I infrequently leave food on my plate and I almost never leave a book unfinished even when it turns out to be less than I expected. In recent memory (about eight years ago) I put down the one installment of the Harry Potter series that was given me by a nephew after only forty pages or so because it began to taste like Ovaltine. I swore off Ovaltine when I was eight.<br /><br />I read a lot of theology – Von Balthasar, De Lubac, Ratzinger, De Chardin, Kasper and Congar are staple favorites. I can’t resist the controversial when it arises, recently, for example, Haight’s <em>Jesus Symbol of God</em> or Dupuis’ <em>Christianity and the Religions</em>. Among Protestant writers Barth and Bultmann are always worthwhile.<br /><br />The somewhat loosely classified ‘existentialists’ are my normal philosophical fare: Kierkegaard, Neitzsche, Heidegger, Chekhov, Ionesco and their ilk.<br /><br />I am quite fond of Greek tragedy (Sophocles and Euripides) and their classical English counterpart, Bill Shakespeare.<br /><br />But a good read certainly does not have to imply heavy lifting. I gobble up Cormac McCarthy, Ian McEwan, Michael Ondaatje, Chuck Palahniuk, Philip Roth, John Irving, Jose Saramago, Gunter Grass and others like a kid who’s allowed to skip the veggies and go right to dessert.<br /><br />To the dismay of some of my brethren in the ministry, I also find dubious delight in horror, both classic and contemporary. I am the Exorcist, after all.<br /><br />I will do late nighters in my lonely, creaky rectory overhanging the railroad tracks with anyone from Edgar Allen Poe and Robert Louis Stevenson to Ray Bradbury, Jack Ketchum and Bentley Little. I even confess to the occasional Stephen King indulgence.<br /><br /><em>What?</em><br />As if the connoisseur of fillet mignon couldn’t cave into the surreptitious craving for a Big Mac once in a while?<br /><br />Anyway, all of this is but a preamble to what I was really going to mention on this post. Although I fully consider myself a child of our post-modern age, I am usually less than enthusiastic about the shiny electronic baubles and gewgaws that our technology enamored world shamelessly peddles as the latest have-to-have keys to hipness.<br /><br />However, a few days ago my love of a good book got the better of me and overrode my distrust of flashy gadgetry. After prolonged inner debate I got myself a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000FI73MA/ref=sd_allcat_kdp">Kindle</a>.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhE6Wlv4gSZ0tEv_GDUZ4gr_5IWTiPosf7z1wsH9loym4Zrs_Wz3f40Z8ZtKOvkzjGAQ5JsBz7LIq1IL0qAYOFps7gVGs3OZ_IC-apOg1uxVhXMWjV1QmycdbN2vi-tOFZG5ra-/s1600-h/reader2.bmp"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhE6Wlv4gSZ0tEv_GDUZ4gr_5IWTiPosf7z1wsH9loym4Zrs_Wz3f40Z8ZtKOvkzjGAQ5JsBz7LIq1IL0qAYOFps7gVGs3OZ_IC-apOg1uxVhXMWjV1QmycdbN2vi-tOFZG5ra-/s320/reader2.bmp" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5255216347847077954" /></a>This little gizmo is the real deal.<br /><br />Books, newspapers, magazines and blogs in a paperback sized contrivance that satiates even the most depraved biblophile’s inner nerd. Instant gratification. Isn’t that what life is all about?<br /><br />I doubt that anything will ever replace the thrill of leisurely searching through used book stores. And no device will substitute the satisfying snap of a hardcover being bent back for the first time or the intoxicating smell of the printed page. But, believe me, the Kindle has already given new meaning to long lines, travel, solitary lunches, boring finance committee meetings, spaces between appointments and down time in general.<br /><br />And so, I hereby boldly state to all the world that the Kindle will ultimately do for Chaucer what the IPod has done for Rachmaninov.<br /><br /><em>What?</em></span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-11582143019335322112008-10-05T07:17:00.008-04:002008-10-06T22:34:47.503-04:00the last resort<span style="color:#ffffff;">.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">.</span><br /></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIUywsgzy0tys4cHQpycHmV_7GK3M3Hc49L2TdyoC6kXy6vN9QVaEmmLYKMvHN2RwrEybkTNkVB5dHn6r4PGyqq1gIwH6pcw3V1kwCyMWM8kIKAOtyHnlKR5JKvTICLz_0J72w/s1600-h/vineyard2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5254232543947862338" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIUywsgzy0tys4cHQpycHmV_7GK3M3Hc49L2TdyoC6kXy6vN9QVaEmmLYKMvHN2RwrEybkTNkVB5dHn6r4PGyqq1gIwH6pcw3V1kwCyMWM8kIKAOtyHnlKR5JKvTICLz_0J72w/s320/vineyard2.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">These first days of fall, with their crisp mornings, luminous and fleeting sunshine, cool afternoon breezes that rustle the crisping, colorful foliage take me back to harvest time in Chile. The grape harvest from late February to early April in fairytale places like the Colchagua Valley and Casablanca is an earthy, deeply human event that brings out the best in man and nature.<br /><br />I would slip away from the everyday demands of ministry in the city to bless the fruits of the season, commend the workers to God’s providence and ask the Lord of the harvest to hold back the rains of winter until the grapes could be safely reaped and stored. Everything about those days is beautiful and subtly sacred and it became clear to me why the vineyard is one of the preferred images in both Old and New Testaments to teach us about the Creator and his relationship with all the created.<br /><br />Even now, in Chile, most of the vineyards are family owned enterprises. I was always enthralled by the unique relationship between the owner, the workers, the winemakers and the vineyard itself – land, vines and climate – for its oneness of purpose and single-minded devotion.<br /><br />Our last three Sundays of ordinary time have dealt us Gospel parables set against the backdrop of the vineyard. Timely and engrossing, they speak to us today even as they did in Jesus’ moment of the divine drama playing out in human history, as rich and complex as the wines that are the vineyards ultimate vindication.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwKJSke9SQ_oGp7c9bEXSzxPfugxW8zgt5fOQjH1FGld8liTJHYB6pd9fAhV_OygujGRVqMcr20Y-c8YfB8jteT7ii_g28j5zj6_oBX2r9iwU1Aotj879CZNzF6BYxfaTN0twb/s1600-h/vineyard1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5254232900530007298" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwKJSke9SQ_oGp7c9bEXSzxPfugxW8zgt5fOQjH1FGld8liTJHYB6pd9fAhV_OygujGRVqMcr20Y-c8YfB8jteT7ii_g28j5zj6_oBX2r9iwU1Aotj879CZNzF6BYxfaTN0twb/s200/vineyard1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />In today’s Gospel, Jesus paraphrases Isaiah’s ‘song of the vineyard’ for the religious leaders of his audience with an added twist: the owner’s lament is now directed not at the miserable fruits of the harvest, but at those who have been charged with reaping and delivering the fruit in its due time.<br /><br />All Jesus’ parables are ultimately self-revealing, but this one seems to intimate painfully more than we might wish to comprehend.<br /><br />When all the emissaries have been dispatched to recover the fruits of the vineyard, when all have met the mean fate that the tenants have prepared for them, Jesus says, “<em>Finally he sent his son to them.</em>”<br /><br />Mark’s retelling of the tale drives the point home with starker, more desperate phrasing: “<em>He had but one left to send, a beloved son. He sent him to them last of all thinking</em>, ‘They will respect my son’.”<br /><br />I am reminded of one of the unanswerable questions that theologians ponder and students of theology, like me, are required to work through and read about in theoretical terms at some point in their studies...<br /><br />Does God suffer? Can the immutable, ever same, impassive Divinity experience what we call pain... loss... emptiness? Pain implies change, movement, imperfection: realities we can hardly attribute to the unchanging Foundation of all there is.<br /><br />Yet Jesus insinuates just that. The owner of the vineyard relinquishes ‘<em>the only one he has left</em>’. He puts at risk and ultimately accepts the loss of ‘<em>the last one</em>’, all he had left, all that was truly his.<br /><br />Paul’s reflections on <em>kenosis</em>, on God’s emptying of self – notably expressed in his letter to the Philippians which, coincidently, is the second reading during these weeks of ordinary time – are restricted to the Son... almost as if the incarnation, the Son’s full identification with human state and circumstance, were the necessary condition for emptiness and suffering.<br /><br />But Jesus puts the origin of drastic self-surrender in the Father. It is the predisposition of the Father to lose the Son that enables the Son to be lost. The parable of the vineyard posits the pain and loss of the Father. Does that not also appear to be the dramatic core of ‘the prodigal son’?<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisNoWix-OjhfA9FbKp5Ykp2IzIvmtZVNBSYEeq0uvIvmdwjW7EwDxynuXbaQZXIOw1kABWVqL6s2-7HXq8k1xxOyaeoOn5dRvxeiQmnjG-yZiigDQyS7mjaqRT-bxL1f3KC76k/s1600-h/vineyard3.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5254233353696273682" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" height="380" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisNoWix-OjhfA9FbKp5Ykp2IzIvmtZVNBSYEeq0uvIvmdwjW7EwDxynuXbaQZXIOw1kABWVqL6s2-7HXq8k1xxOyaeoOn5dRvxeiQmnjG-yZiigDQyS7mjaqRT-bxL1f3KC76k/s400/vineyard3.jpg" width="346" border="0" /></a> The revelation – that only the Son can make – of a quality in the Father best expressed by an analogy with human pain and loss, better yet, with human capacity for radical self-sacrifice is the least ‘theoretical’ of all revealed truths.<br /><br />It means that reckless abandonment of self, giving regardless of the cost, surrender that finds no kinship with defeat... are the very fiber of this world’s reality which reflects in all its mysterious nuances the heart of its Creator.<br /><br />This alone sustains our hope in a world that never tires of beating it down and smothering it... in a futile attempt to wrest the inheritance from the Son.<br /><br />These are my thoughts as I head down for the first of today’s three Eucharistic celebrations. I can only appeal to the benevolence of my parishioners...<br /></span><br /><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Peace.</span></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-79155516776133603452008-09-30T23:41:00.004-04:002008-10-07T17:50:01.783-04:00weltschmertz<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">This doesn’t feel right.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUiftrPpQ2H_B2IfwBh0CHB_L-N87mtgifWCjYLiCNjc40Z_XjYtlyVKb3Wl9KdanV9Ycc290owpZsz4aJAy-zrdcE_wwO4cz7RgTW0A-Pk9YCbzPLl8afGbijEFhumhJcRgPG/s1600-h/bosox1.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5252196026508676690" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUiftrPpQ2H_B2IfwBh0CHB_L-N87mtgifWCjYLiCNjc40Z_XjYtlyVKb3Wl9KdanV9Ycc290owpZsz4aJAy-zrdcE_wwO4cz7RgTW0A-Pk9YCbzPLl8afGbijEFhumhJcRgPG/s400/bosox1.bmp" border="0" /></a>At any other point of my life I would be thoroughly enjoying the shameful collapse of New York baseball. That particularly visceral loathing reserved only for the Yankees and their close cousins, the common cockroach, by now would have turned into profound satisfaction. Joba - the messiah - burning out, Hank’s constant blathering, A-Dud getting booed at the Stadium, Jeter still pretending he cares about anything... even the pathetic, boring, typically overrated ceremony that shut down the Stadium... it all should make me giddy as we enter the post season Yankee-less for the first time in 14 years.<br /><br />The implosion at Shea was like a fine <em>digestivo</em> – a silky grappa or a pungent fernet - after sticking a fork in the Evil Empire. For the second straight season the Mets barely managed to whisk defeat from the jaws of victory and go down in a graceless heap. Being even bigger doofuses than their Bronx rivals, they celebrated the closing of the stadium <em><strong>after</strong></em> losing their last game. Now, that was one exciting send-off.<br /><br />And yet, all of this is barely a blip on my radar. I may watch a few innings of the Sox-Angels series. I will probably check to see if Pedroia won MVP, just out of curiosity. I might even stay up late if it goes to a fifth game in Anaheim.<br /><br />But, I confess, my heart’s not in it. I’m as likely to doze off before they call in Papelbon as I am to forget to even turn on the game.<br /><br />The loss of Fr. Dave still lingering? The perpetually unresolved issues of the parishes gaining weight? The uncertainty of what the immediate future may bring? The nostalgia and yearning of autumn playing in the background?<br /><br /><em>Chi lo sa</em>...<br />Where are you in life when even the sure-fire distractions fail to distract?<br />Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-77377860451359566472008-09-28T22:58:00.006-04:002008-09-28T23:06:00.464-04:0030 years already?<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffffff;">.<br /></span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhG7Nod_W1v6mOK7Q8fDhk5MbdHwZrH8TghNKIYRb-chQywiJpTpscZmUMtMm-kOjaVjp2S2Vl7vkGE_PXOU5DIb0l71Eim4DBDqzg6i7BHJX5CJ09vvd2j6ay7ppcbrjdxf5RA/s1600-h/jp1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5251273507221173570" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhG7Nod_W1v6mOK7Q8fDhk5MbdHwZrH8TghNKIYRb-chQywiJpTpscZmUMtMm-kOjaVjp2S2Vl7vkGE_PXOU5DIb0l71Eim4DBDqzg6i7BHJX5CJ09vvd2j6ay7ppcbrjdxf5RA/s400/jp1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;"><strong>Pope John Paul I</strong></span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;"><strong>17 October 1912 - 28 September 1978</strong></span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;"><strong>Ordained July 7, 1935</strong></span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;"><em>gone too soon</em></span></div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left"><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><em>You are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church" (Mt 16:18) are the weighty, great and solemn words that Jesus speaks to Simon, son of John, after his profession of faith. This profession of faith was not the product of the Bethsaida fisherman's human logic or the expression of any special insight of his or the effect of some psychological impulse; it was rather the mysterious and singular result of a real revelation of the Father in heaven. Jesus changes Simon's name to Peter, thus signifying the conferring of a special mission. He promises to build on him his Church, which will not be overthrown by the forces of evil or death. He grants him the keys of the kingdom of God, thus appointing him the highest official of his Church, and gives him the power to interpret authentically the law of God. In view of these privileges, or rather these superhuman tasks entrusted to Peter, Saint Augustine points out to us: "Peter was by nature simply a man, by grace a Christian, by still more abundant grace one of the Apostles and at the same time the first of the Apostles". <span style="font-family:times new roman;font-size:85%;">(Pope John Paul I, September 3 1978)</span></em></span></div><div align="left"><em><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:85%;"></span></em></div><div align="left"></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-5160063628143455502008-09-26T23:06:00.003-04:002008-09-27T14:31:24.729-04:00dead, not forgotten<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">We buried Fr. Dave a week ago today. Just a few family members, two other priests, a deacon and his wife and I walked through the crisp sunshine in the cemetery. All in all, he got a very dignified and honorable send off to eternity. At the wake on Thursday many people who knew or knew of this admirable and friendly priest passed through the cathedral to say a quick prayer or sit in the welcome silence and meditate with pause. The parish Mass followed the wake, for Dave’s childhood parish was also the city cathedral of St. Joseph. I was asked to preach and tried to keep it simple, from the heart.<br /><br />The Archbishop celebrated the funeral Mass on Friday morning. About 80 priests concelebrated, the gospel choir of St. Michael parish sang and there were easily 400 or more people in attendance. A childhood friend and classmate in the seminary preached, recalling highlights of Dave’s journey as a priest of 53 years and their friendship. It was all very family-like, very much the heartfelt tribute to a fine and holy man who had definitely run the good race.</span><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUzTJAoW6gLjplVBhpMK-5O-ceTL_zZ1ECQECEyKjCWN6nAeT6VkoOmV7Er_58EDRs-rYg-infYOkWT7YqAqktu0zLsmgkJfp-MRHp5xP-We87QTdVjuy33MFO9nUxWU6Y08Y8/s1600-h/stjoes1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250765522985920706" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUzTJAoW6gLjplVBhpMK-5O-ceTL_zZ1ECQECEyKjCWN6nAeT6VkoOmV7Er_58EDRs-rYg-infYOkWT7YqAqktu0zLsmgkJfp-MRHp5xP-We87QTdVjuy33MFO9nUxWU6Y08Y8/s400/stjoes1.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I was distracted, however, at one point in the funeral Mass when a verse was cited from a psalm that Fr. Maciel was fond of quoting to us: “<em>Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act</em>.” <span style="font-size:78%;">(Psalm 37)</span><br /><br />The memory and sadness of Fr. Maciel’s death that went without the recognition, the thanks and the heartfelt farewells came back to me. He received no acknowledgement from the Church he served, there was no celebration of his work or achievements, his funeral was hastily and perfunctorily carried out in the backwater of Cotija, attended only by those fortunate enough to be called in by the higher powers. The entire affair was shrouded by a furtive and clandestine fog.<br /><br />Other Founders of our time (J.M.Escribá!, Mother Theresa!, Chiara Lubic!) were celebrated by their Church and the obvious affection of the many people whose lives they touched. Fr. Maciel himself never imagined the final chapter of his life being written in such ignominious shorthand. There was to be a crypt in Rome, a pilgrimage of LC and RC members, unabashed signs of gratitude and admiration...<br /><br />It has been a hard pill for us to swallow. It was an event we should have been allowed to experience as a congregation and a movement and it was callously taken off the agenda at the last minute. And the leadership of the LC has opted to leave each of us with our own doubts, questions and frustrations as it has all gone down.<br /><br />When Fr. JME died – has it been three years already? – I could not attend the funeral, much to my deep regret. He was a friend and a mentor, a sage and a humble brother. He was kind to a fault, had a razor sharp wit and could be piercingly critical. I quote him frequently to this day. He was an LC that gave hope to many other LCs and RCs because he would go beyond the packaged advice and tired clichés that, unfortunately, often pass for spiritual direction in our system and he would speak from the heart, with real compassion for others, with depth and thoughtfulness...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPUC6Rc7Ujm1riTypmvqAkkYlM7_iSoSB5ArH_UWdLS4rpKSz53WJMfeySw5fuP-cw94PEfwYfbGmVQ0WlI2ceemctkQOVsRR1VtMhgjlAT_xvreox9m9k_fc7G2jKh66ouOGW/s1600-h/PJM3.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250766006458563970" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPUC6Rc7Ujm1riTypmvqAkkYlM7_iSoSB5ArH_UWdLS4rpKSz53WJMfeySw5fuP-cw94PEfwYfbGmVQ0WlI2ceemctkQOVsRR1VtMhgjlAT_xvreox9m9k_fc7G2jKh66ouOGW/s200/PJM3.jpg" border="0" /></a> Anyway, I missed the funeral because in Chile there is no practice of embalming, no routine of funeral homes that give family and friends a few days to arrive. Folks are normally buried within 24 hours of their passing. That’s no one’s fault. I simply couldn’t get there on time.<br /><br />In retrospect, it was probably better for me that I be absent. There was no sincere tribute paid him at his funeral and again the LC was incapable of truly celebrating the life and legacy of one of its great men. The local superior at the time - a self-absorbed, politically astute homunculus who had little use or admiration for Fr. JME in his lifetime – was hopelessly off the mark when he delivered a generic homily that only served to reconfirm his blatant detachment from all that is real or important to the rank-and-file of the LC and RC. It was the same homily that he rattled off at two other funerals of deceased LCs.<br /><br />And they think we don’t notice.<br />Good grief.<br /><br />Fr. Dave’s passing has left that same void that Fr. Maciel and Fr. JME left with their departures. I walk around in a haze for a few weeks, go through the motions and wait for the internal elements to straighten themselves out again.<br /><br />But this time at least, I felt that the good-byes were well said, heartfelt and worthy of the life they celebrated.<br /><br />Peace.<br /><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-60957048037281122802008-09-16T16:22:00.005-04:002008-09-18T23:34:49.307-04:00requiescat<div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">We lost a holy priest, a tireless advocate, a wise mentor and a dear friend this morning at 4am. </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Rest in peace, Dave, you will be sorely missed.</span></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTYFKYOk4U0MdJE72vB-pWNTZFQrmkDNxrgogWB8-dv-VnFVhTf-JKIKN6WHzTg_i-mkNYsE3Pk-VuGiJgLBrzHsD1ynphzinqgEgs72PNCoYsJp6KYsLswV9om5vhGA1qSKVq/s1600-h/frdave2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5246717862554563026" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTYFKYOk4U0MdJE72vB-pWNTZFQrmkDNxrgogWB8-dv-VnFVhTf-JKIKN6WHzTg_i-mkNYsE3Pk-VuGiJgLBrzHsD1ynphzinqgEgs72PNCoYsJp6KYsLswV9om5vhGA1qSKVq/s320/frdave2.jpg" border="0" /> </a><p align="center"><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">Fr. David McDonald<br />September 8, 1929 - September 16, 2008<br />Ordained: May 19, 1955</span> </p><p align="center"></p><p align="center"></p>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-56165753918750160572008-09-11T05:59:00.000-04:002008-09-11T09:09:29.759-04:00in memoriam<span style="font-family:times new roman;font-size:78%;">.</span><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0-sJzDLXoBVqm9XctIZ8C9-p1AvljAoN5F8jEFXjJjRDXUJqI_IcfzGzpYMyWMfcXsvjPpC1iTT0ovxb4vTt-Rvh3Sjyk8M59zdgQvZLnPlesvFBkU9b_qzR9X1_eFqc2WMpV/s1600-h/911a.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244749829727323906" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0-sJzDLXoBVqm9XctIZ8C9-p1AvljAoN5F8jEFXjJjRDXUJqI_IcfzGzpYMyWMfcXsvjPpC1iTT0ovxb4vTt-Rvh3Sjyk8M59zdgQvZLnPlesvFBkU9b_qzR9X1_eFqc2WMpV/s400/911a.bmp" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">For all the fallen and their families, remembrance and a prayer.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">It happened seven years ago and I was 5125 miles away... but there's no forgetting.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Not today, not ever.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-54903089703950092252008-09-06T23:33:00.002-04:002008-09-06T23:33:00.810-04:00hardly convincing<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Recently, a Jesuit friend (yup, imagine that...) invited me to a screening of <a href="http://www.vowsofsilencefilm.com/index.html">Jason Berry’s film <em>Vows of Silence</em></a> scheduled for screening at Fairfield University in a few weeks. I told him that I had seen it once already, on DVD. If the screening is part of a forum on the broader issues of the clergy abuse scandal and reform in the Church, I am definitely interested. If it’s solely centered on this specific bit of filmmaking... not so much. The Exorcist’s opinion, for whatever it’s worth, includes some of the following thoughts.<br /><br />The DVD summarizes the basic content covered in more detail in Berry’s book by the same name. There are small historical imprecisions that neither help nor hurt the central thesis of the author. A generous portion of the footage is taken from the LC promotional videos of the ‘90s. There is no novelty, no surprise in the documentary-like program for anyone familiar with the controversy that ensued between Fr. Maciel and his ex-LC accusers some years ago after reporting by the Hartford Courant and lasted up to the Vatican’s statement on the case and the Founder’s death.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP21W4QNW-OJ0xuBzbVGcvy3yZLhJ9yCUKk5M_a18zl2eIcG6yEH7GqCsyI4d90mnv9JWFGYR2xf0aAHmF2DLTXCS1yzDwVanCvGUyKbxj2P1JWYqL7GuhN_YSasEQFV26mvFa/s1600-h/goosestep.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242979941525355602" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP21W4QNW-OJ0xuBzbVGcvy3yZLhJ9yCUKk5M_a18zl2eIcG6yEH7GqCsyI4d90mnv9JWFGYR2xf0aAHmF2DLTXCS1yzDwVanCvGUyKbxj2P1JWYqL7GuhN_YSasEQFV26mvFa/s400/goosestep.jpg" border="0" /></a>The program’s insistence that Fr. Maciel was somehow inspired by the likes of Adolph Hitler, Francisco Franco or Augusto Pinochet to found the LC is misguided at best. The images of goose-stepping foot soldiers and flat-handed, straight-armed salutes mixed with uniformed LCs from the 50s and 60s probably made for some excitement in the editing room, but have little to do with the reality of the LC. It is this type of overkill that raises credibility issues in the minds of even the more critically inclined among us.<br /><br />But the fundamental and lasting complaint to be lodged with the fairness police about this film is also the oldest and the least politically correct.<br /><br />Why should I believe Fr. Maciel’s accusers in the first place?<br /><br />Why give instant and unquestioned credibility to persons whose stories might just merit a more critical look? Case in point, there’s a new face among the accusers that appears toward the end of the program. A young man, ex-LC priest, recounts that Fr. Maciel squeezed his arm and told him how strong he was while they were driving in a car with other passengers from Germany to Belgium back in the ‘90s.<br /><br />That’s it. Fr. Maciel squeezed his arm.<br /><br />This guy tearfully tells how later, as a midlevel Vatican official, he read the Courant articles on the web and – recalling the arm squeeze – suddenly realized that it was all horribly, scandalously true. The Founder he had once revered and respected was actually a monster in disguise.<br /><br />Is it so coldly insensitive to those who have cloaked themselves in the mantle of victimhood to ask if that’s all there is to the story? Who is this guy that a squeeze on the arm, a pat on the back, a fist bump or a high-five reveals to him the hidden immorality of his religious superior? Are we to assume, as the program insinuates, that this accuser abandoned his job in the Vatican, his vocation to the LC and his priesthood because of what he read in the Hartford Courant? Is that really it? Might there not be some factor - other than an arm squeeze and a newspaper article - that induces this young man to reflect on his LC past with hindsight tinged by bitterness or disdain or shame or sadness or whatever?<br /><br />I’ve said it before. When faced with the choice between my own experience of nearly thirty years in close contact with the Founder and the testimony of others, blurred by unanswered questions... I can only honestly be expected to hold on to what I know to be true. Jason Berry’s film has simply reinforced that conviction.<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Peace.</span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-49231626431893418382008-09-05T23:51:00.000-04:002008-09-06T12:10:08.217-04:00dead man standing<p><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I wonder if the antics of the living mortify the dead.<br /><br />The dead are commonly well behaved. They wait patiently for the wake to begin. They silently bear the excesses of their loved ones. They seldom disrupt the exequial Mass celebrated on their behalf. They proceed relaxed and composed (as opposed to decomposed) to the burial site. And they surrender themselves discreetly to the finality of it all as they are lowered into their ultimate resting place.<br /><br />The living are another can of worms altogether.<br /><br />I have seen first hand:<br /><br />- friends and family snapping photos on their cell phones as the deceased lies in state<br />- other family members squeezing in cheek-to-cadaverous-cheek to be in the photo with the deceased<br />- the photo of the deceased emblazoned on T-shirts that are worn the following day at the funeral Mass<br />- one friend hold the hand of the deceased out of the casket to allow the other friends walk by and reverently fist bump their dead homey<br />- mothers, grandmothers, wives and girl friends (recognized and suddenly revealed) throw themselves on the open casket and attempt to wrest the defunct object of their affection from a prone position, as if forcing him back to the land of the living<br />- sons and nephews pour cans of Tecate on papi’s casket as it is being lowered into the ground<br />- a live pet schnauzer resting on his ex-master’s legs as the mourners file by<br />- abuela being covered in sea shells before her coffin is closed because she always loved the beach<br />- junior clothed in pinstripes, fitted with a cap, adorned with a first baseman’s glove and wrapped in a Yankees blanket as he lays motionless<br />- a squirrel running into a wake in progress and scampering up onto the open casket of the departed<br />- el tío laid to rest in a fiberglass coffin fashioned into a pink Dodge pick-up<br />- friends dancing cumbia around the gravesite as mami waits to be inhumed<br />- fainting, screaming, vomiting, thrashing, laughing, cursing, crying and clapping... all by the living<br /><br />But this takes the cake:<br /></p></span><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5OlwBtmZ_no3X2vRGM0UsjIVpP9dc1ER92si_Kly-bzlyJMzx5gvw5x-fXo4vl6zJzaLIQRWXHyTAAjmKP4LrczeDbbWMt-Ww8IJFwikB_8k-Nl32MU0NyERWN2s6RBsFqf3B/s1600-h/deadboricua.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242939921778274370" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5OlwBtmZ_no3X2vRGM0UsjIVpP9dc1ER92si_Kly-bzlyJMzx5gvw5x-fXo4vl6zJzaLIQRWXHyTAAjmKP4LrczeDbbWMt-Ww8IJFwikB_8k-Nl32MU0NyERWN2s6RBsFqf3B/s400/deadboricua.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />What ever happened to "rest in peace"? </p><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><p>The indignity of death is only surpassed by the insanity of the living.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br /></span></p>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-56418185335651548022008-08-30T23:41:00.003-04:002008-08-30T23:41:00.793-04:00smell the coffee<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Raul is a pain in the ass.<br /><br />I imply no moral judgment here. It is a fact, pure and simple.<br /><br />Raul likes to ring the rectory doorbell at 5:45am on Saturdays. Saturday is the one day of the week that I do not have to be up early for Mass at any of the three parishes I celebrate at on Sundays and during the week.<br /><br />I doubt that Raul knows this. If he did I would have begun this post with, “<em>Raul is a <strong>malicious</strong> pain in the ass</em>.” That would most definitely have been a moral judgment.<br /><br />Raul rings the bell adamantly and shouts, “<em>Padrecito!! Padrecito!!</em>”. I can only assume, even in my sleep smeared semi-consciousness, that Raul is trying to get my attention.<br /><br />Groggy and alarmed, I stumbled downstairs and opened the door the first five or six times that Raul roused me, half expecting to find someone bleeding profusely from gang inflicted shotgun wounds on the doorstep. I would not have minded getting up at 5:45 for that. Not as much, anyway.<br /><br />But no, no comatose victim gasping for breath, no hugely pregnant woman on the verge of childbirth, no family of transient workers seeking refuge from immigration raids... just Raul.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMhGAFtpBV2tbmnwkqlsDMtMg8fj2BGmiEBvBEUejquGoA0KQkGLt9BzUUtq4JUjplf6ijn2c4PFlLU4h_CCUcnVdXYQ2ZkAkFZg6RId0J4TscaKGPtgTPaRwBQAZyAeDipaeC/s1600-h/hot-coffee1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240476676372576866" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMhGAFtpBV2tbmnwkqlsDMtMg8fj2BGmiEBvBEUejquGoA0KQkGLt9BzUUtq4JUjplf6ijn2c4PFlLU4h_CCUcnVdXYQ2ZkAkFZg6RId0J4TscaKGPtgTPaRwBQAZyAeDipaeC/s400/hot-coffee1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Raul wants coffee.<br /><br />It is amazing that I actually ran this drill five or six times before realizing that my Saturday wake-up call was summoning me, not to some life or death situation, but to Raul’s mistaking the parish for Starbucks. I must not be too intelligent.<br /><br />I will not speculate on Raul’s intelligence.<br /><br />The first time I responded to his beckoning, I could hardly believe my ears. I said something like, “<em>Raul, I can hardly believe my ears!</em>”. I told him that there would be no coffee at the rectory until 7am at the earliest. In fact, to be on the safe side, try back sometime after 10.<br /><br />Raul looked at me as if he couldn’t believe his ears, and shuffled away.<br /><br />In the meantime, a lot went down between 5:45 and 10am that particular Saturday and, sorry to say, I kind of forgot about Raul. Returning from hospital visits at around 10:50am, I stopped by the local Dunkin Donuts and ordered a double shot <em>Turbo</em> with three <em>Splenda</em>s. This was to be my breakfast.<br /><br />I got out of the car and, lost in thought, turned the corner to the rectory where I nearly stepped on Raul, who was patiently sitting on the steps.<br /><br />Raul’s eyes welled up and he drew his tattered sleeve across his grimy, moist nose. “<em>I knew it, Padrecito! I knew you did not abandon me!</em>”<br /><br />Ever the hero, I surrendered my steaming cup to this Jesus-in-disguise. Raul removed the cover and stared at its contents. “<em>Padrecito, next time I like a little bit milk in my café</em>.”<br /><br />Weeks have passed and Raul and I have grown in our relationship. I have convinced him that Thursdays – food pantry days – are the best days for prompt and friendly service at the parish. Raul, on his part, has confided to me that he never really knows what day it is anyway so any further counseling I may wish to offer him on the issue is probably moot.<br /><br />I was sorely tempted to disconnect the rectory doorbell on Saturdays, but, with my luck, the day I do one of this miserable city’s victims will actually show up at my door. I don’t even want to think about that.<br /><br />So, I had the parish spring for a Braun with an automatic timer. Coffee is served from 5:45 on. There is milk in the refrigerator. All are welcome. Raul loves company.<br /><br />Peace. </span>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-7519093980010145522008-08-29T22:46:00.007-04:002008-08-29T23:03:51.425-04:00a prayer for the brokenhearted.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheVaIj-pWmObcCJ6NXu81GvLi494AIx6RhXIX4W0ls7Ip2POyj-YRCE7FAcBGiDnOSVB5462hAhTSjJlTxiHWGYXL2WqAeltVvS1mBeSsdGIMgpwe9Fc6zupPDPViv2hFTt1UL/s1600-h/sadangel1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240140086265228210" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheVaIj-pWmObcCJ6NXu81GvLi494AIx6RhXIX4W0ls7Ip2POyj-YRCE7FAcBGiDnOSVB5462hAhTSjJlTxiHWGYXL2WqAeltVvS1mBeSsdGIMgpwe9Fc6zupPDPViv2hFTt1UL/s320/sadangel1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I was celebrating a funeral Mass at 5pm this afternoon at St. Michael when my cell phone began buzzing wildly in my pocket. When Mass was over I learned that 9 young girls of our flagship school in Santiago had perished in </span><a href="http://www.emol.com/noticias/nacional/detalle/detallenoticias.asp?idnoticia=319732"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">a horrific bus accident</span></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> in Putre, northern Chile.<br /><br />I know some of the families of the deceased and injured and can barely imagine the pain and heart sickness of their families and the entire community that I was so deeply involved with for 10 years of my priestly ministry.<br /><br />My thoughts and prayers for you all.<br />Peace.</span><br /><br /><a></a></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-21195439204183841122008-07-25T23:04:00.009-04:002008-07-25T23:21:55.565-04:00withdrawl<div><div><div><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">From this:</span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0nKUR7EQYuY3Ny2lB49XwP8A1EOXH-USlzDRu5Qr7Ys3MTBd4MWoQPYiMUOS3f-8Mi8IlvMAsKvqFi6FoX8xG8CEy8s2H8PlwPUfIxYlnoWKDKE-gl50C840NZKcIMkNhbn4Q/s1600-h/nosara1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5227155317788658866" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0nKUR7EQYuY3Ny2lB49XwP8A1EOXH-USlzDRu5Qr7Ys3MTBd4MWoQPYiMUOS3f-8Mi8IlvMAsKvqFi6FoX8xG8CEy8s2H8PlwPUfIxYlnoWKDKE-gl50C840NZKcIMkNhbn4Q/s400/nosara1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and this:</span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicYeWvxgop3Ga_pbN8MxgBxY5-0kjgx7ceMuLQhpU8XHElJo3uLaFGtIt6fR4YE33dQ2CVG7I7FQCJmc7LfxRO2oO2wUeR2VGyzhHevyz5Eje2TCctR-cpyG4Gmduh6LkboIsz/s1600-h/cr+volcano1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5227155905723677282" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicYeWvxgop3Ga_pbN8MxgBxY5-0kjgx7ceMuLQhpU8XHElJo3uLaFGtIt6fR4YE33dQ2CVG7I7FQCJmc7LfxRO2oO2wUeR2VGyzhHevyz5Eje2TCctR-cpyG4Gmduh6LkboIsz/s320/cr+volcano1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">to this:</span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSlmUsZrvyRELKlK5J6VdQvRO4UQZSmZneHVG5pOSGCBwtRjN8Fa0epp61ux0kfF2JsKNKZ6GS5x37bM5AnutRbIsJ8ATRe3vjf_9aozzLqS3O2iMxxqx-UldOt1sQb1ZvQ_cy/s1600-h/traffic1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5227156224180848322" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSlmUsZrvyRELKlK5J6VdQvRO4UQZSmZneHVG5pOSGCBwtRjN8Fa0epp61ux0kfF2JsKNKZ6GS5x37bM5AnutRbIsJ8ATRe3vjf_9aozzLqS3O2iMxxqx-UldOt1sQb1ZvQ_cy/s320/traffic1.jpg" border="0" /></a> </div><br /><div><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">and this:</span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFmH-vMqwADFuQOK1aQpwWMMxVsDiqgMrCvd2sJCBPnnwGz5LV5fIkcbkByb17yQAw4lLrviPksiK8YF7Q3bsPW1QwfyQ9eNdMouQkbR0sbP1jYOnOR-O-lqv3w1YZJUsopPOG/s1600-h/hartford+slum1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5227156581072076194" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFmH-vMqwADFuQOK1aQpwWMMxVsDiqgMrCvd2sJCBPnnwGz5LV5fIkcbkByb17yQAw4lLrviPksiK8YF7Q3bsPW1QwfyQ9eNdMouQkbR0sbP1jYOnOR-O-lqv3w1YZJUsopPOG/s320/hartford+slum1.jpg" border="0" /></a> </div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></div><br /><br /><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I pine.</span></div></div></div></div>Fr. Karrashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01525015025328962002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12466923.post-48024943568217044882008-06-14T01:01:00.002-04:002008-06-14T01:01:01.271-04:00baba ganoush<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><div><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Raisa is the archetypal <em>mulier fortis</em> of the vulgate septuagint.<br /><br />She is a force of nature. She is Gaia. Mother Earth with an apron and an Oster Salon Pro.</span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYN1iGsDwbOVC8TEssfwP9bch7cEe2AazpXbwtlRzdjrOkdNH9CN1D1DZjfwgWSWCItxz-Vj4uhvKI6H1tJVsmn4OjCqIriKGbGsuu1Q_zUy1hllByYbxRAuyjQDB9M_TvxLO2/s1600-h/sibylla1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5211553283622602162" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYN1iGsDwbOVC8TEssfwP9bch7cEe2AazpXbwtlRzdjrOkdNH9CN1D1DZjfwgWSWCItxz-Vj4uhvKI6H1tJVsmn4OjCqIriKGbGsuu1Q_zUy1hllByYbxRAuyjQDB9M_TvxLO2/s400/sibylla1.jpg" border="0" /></a> I stumbled onto her unisex salon... no, no, I was led there by fate and destiny and the Oracle, one cold February Wednesday.<br /><br />As she beckoned me with the curl of her sibyllic finger, I was captivated by an aroma uncommon to barber shops. Not oil, not sprays or gels or dyes. Something spicy and Mediterranean. Something the matriarchs of yesterfar would simmer and stir in terracotta pottery while dreaming of seeing their menfolk return from battle. An odor that took sole possession of the olfactory epithelium, the medulla oblongata and the loins.<br /><br />A sculptor peers at a block of marble and sees Laocoon. Raisa appraises even the least promising of scalps and envisions art. She hovers over me, impatiently taps my temples to one side or the other, snorts and hyperventilates, changes clipper heads with a vengeance and in an apocalyptic flurry whips out her flat blade and slashes my neck hairs into submission. </span></div><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />The last time I saw Raisa she said, “<em>Next time we try all hair, one length. Look good on head like you</em>.”<br /><br />A Greek goddess? An Armenian wonder wench? A Transylvanian she-revenant? I could only guess. But that smell...<br /><br />Last Friday I went to the festival at <a href="http://www.stgeorgecathedral.org/">St. George Cathedral</a>. An ecumenical gesture and a much needed break from the rectory. As I wandered the grounds, it slowly subverted my senses... the unmistakable perfume wafting up from the depths of the fairgrounds.<br /><br />Raisa! Or her progeny? I followed my nose to the food booths off to the left of the parking lot.<br /><br />“<em>This is the cradle of life!</em>”, I told the ruddy faced woman behind the hot plate. “<em>This is the primal puddle from which Gaia herself has sprung!</em>”, I cried.<br /><br />“No. This baba ganoush. Good for you. Eat.”<br /><br />As I dipped my pita flatbread in the steaming melitzano salata and pondered the oneness of all aromas, a light breeze stirred the branches of the poplar trees behind me.<br /><br />“<em>All is one</em>”, the zephyr whispered, “<em>search no more</em>.”<br /><br />Peace.</span> </div>Fr. 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